全新的我

不知道从何时起，渐渐把一些记忆抛开脑后。等发现时才明白，原来时间真的可以冲淡一切。或许是因为记忆变差了，所以才会忘记吧。。。人老了脑袋真是不中用 =.="

想想， 以前还傻傻的等待最后一分钟强先祝贺,结果人家也不当一回事,真的是单纯到可以  +.+ 不过也感谢他的冷淡无情所以我才能放下这段感情。天涯何处无方草，我相信我会找到更好的！！！！！！我不信我嫁不出去！！！！

最后谢谢老天爷让我找到这一份工作，把我这只羔羊拉回正确的路。菩萨保佑，菩萨保佑。。。。您留给我的路，我会加把劲直到成功！

Linkin Park

Recently I was addicted to Linkin Park.
They were just too FUCKING AWESOME! They made their songs from A-Z; compose their songs, arrangement, directed mv & designed their album's cover. I never saw such talented band before!

Btw, this is new song from Linkin Park.

My Life

短暂的开心，
短暂的幸福，
长时的心痛，
长时的寂寞。

变态

虽然我从来都不承认我脑筋有问题，不过现在我相信了。
不断回忆过去还一直觉得后悔，我果然有病。
病到开始搞自虐，还把后悔当作自虐工具，
我真的是变态。

For you

Feelings are not short-lived. At least for me, it’s not. I know it’s hard to let you believe, if i tell you, the feelings does existed in my heart since we met and somehow, I believe it’s still hiding somewhere deep inside my heart.

Before meet you, I never expected that I’d dramatically, fall into a guy whom I knew from online game, and met only once in my life. I wonder that is so called one-sight-love? I rather don’t want to trust it but it happened to me. Maybe this is my destiny?

Did you still remember how we meet 5 years ago? Back then, we used to hanging around play Dota 5.84c, we exchange our Friendster profile and started to chat through MSN. Back then, I’m feel really happy when chatting with you every nights and I really appreciated those moments, because it is the only way we connected.

I would never forget the very first time when we “date” at Wangsa Maju, the very first time you SMS me, the very first time we watch Fifa World Cup together, and the very first time I meet you in reality. You know, it’s kinda awkward when meet you, because you’re more than how I’ve expected in my mind. I always don’t know how to start the conversation and feel awkward in front of you, because I know I'm not good at English.

Honestly, I really can’t tell which part of you could take me goes for so long. What I know is, you are different from other guys I’ve known; Sometimes you just like a kid who like those kid stuffs yet retain a mature mind, sometimes you behave cold, but sometimes will unexpectedly very enthusiastic. I really can’t understand you for so long. Maybe this are what made you very “special” to me and the reason why I like you so much =)

I understand that feelings are something that can’t be force. And I understand that I’m not the one who deserve to be your special one. Don’t get me wrong, I never meant to force you or something. I just wanted you to know how i feel, because I don’t want to end up with regrets without telling you my feelings. I know I’m annoying, never learn to give up. But you know, this is something that hard to resist….I think I’d never meet someone like you anymore in my life. I’d never know that I would ever miss someone and wanted to see him so much in my life. I want to like the things that you like, see what you see and think what you think. You’re really so mean to me.

Lastly, I’m really glad that I could meet you in my life. I will never forget every moments that we spent together and what you’ve talked and taught me.

P/s: Take care always
*Hugs*

Love,
mashi